Sometimes I still can't believe everything God has done to me! As I've told you guys before, my dream is coming true. Usually, people who get to know the story when it's about to happen, don't know what you had to go through.
Many nights, tears dropping... I may sound silly, funny, strong sometimes, however I'm undeniably emotional... I'm a human being!!
My mom is my model, my best friend, my secret keeper... We are so closed that God knew that the only thing which would make me quit about traveling was leaving her, since it's only her, my siter and I. I didn't know I was ready to live without her. I didn't realize I had to be more independent so abruptly, I had to, though. I realized that I had to cut my umbilical cord once again and truly walk with my own feet.
Everybody is different from each other (Thank God, otherwise it would be extremely boring), and despite the fact I am a young grown-up guy I was really scared about getting independent! I was frightened about the future, about failing... Afraid of falling... I knew that I had to and want to, but I was afraid of it!
Being the youngest child and not having my father's love, support and encouragement, my mom protected me so much and we got so connected that I thought I'd be a stupid lost guy without her. God has taught me that my future is in his hands and He has taken good care of me (and my mom and sister as well). For some people it's a not a big deal, but it's to me! It's a big step!
There are a little more than 100 days for me to leave for St. Ambrose, make new friends and join this new family! We feel that we will miss each other very, I said very, much (Thank God for technology), We are inseparables but we knew that one day, physically we would be far from each other. And this trip it's just the beginning!
What makes me move on?
1) I won't have them forever and I'll have to built up my life;
2) My mom said that she loved me more than everything and she'd not be happy by knowing that she was an obstacle for me to not achieve my goals. After that, she said something important that I kept it in my mind and heart: " If you love me so much as you do say, make me a favor: ' be happy '! And I'll be too! Because your happiness is mine and whenever you may go I'll be with you through my prayers, my love. And whenever you need me, I'll always be here for you!"
Sometimes, it seems like I will stay there for more than six months, we don't know... Everything I know ,as everybody needs to know, is that we NEED to "lose" things to get others (I hope you get what I'm trying to say). To achieve precisely some goals we need to abdicate some things, leave some obstacles behind, be away from people who you love in order to grow spiritually and personally! I wouldn't say that my time to do was late, I'd say that the right time to experience it it's now!!
Everything I know is that I'm a successful student, singer, teacher, a very responsible and professional guy and a good leader for having such great examples! Thank God for you guys, my dear family! God may be with you endlessly and with you guys as well!